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Mar 21, 2023Liked by Kier Adrian Gray

Wow. I'm appreciating the clarity with which you described this experience! So much of this is exactly like what I went through.

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Dec 19, 2022Liked by Kier Adrian Gray

This really hit home--I've watched cherished online communities get torn apart with recriminations which no apology however sincere or abject could satisfy. The sheer speed at which relationships which had lasted years could collapse--the way people could have their entire value as a human being seemingly judged on the basis of a single comment that they didn't understand might cause offense; or to be reviled as worthless or evil for trying to repair relationships or turn down the heat and rebuild the community. It was astonishing how much pain people were willing to inflict in their pursuit of righteous justice--humiliating others and causing real psychological damage to people who had been their friends. Most of my friends from those days refuse to talk about it because they fear it will fuel bad-faith right-wing narratives. I am so grateful for your courage and honesty in exploring why otherwise good people were willing to inflict so much pain, and how much this behavior can limit our pursuit of true justice and healthy communities and movements that can build authentic power for those who most need it.

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You describe the vicious cycle within this subculture very well! I sympathize with those who fear that speaking out will fuel right-wing narratives because that is what kept me from writing on this topic for so long. However I've come to believe that that fear is deeply embedded in the dysfunction of the subculture: the idea that loyalty, even if superficial, is more important than the truth. I breathe much easier having chosen the latter.

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Aug 9, 2022Liked by Kier Adrian Gray

Impressive. I wish you the best. I think you will make a difference. Let your light shine.

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Thanks so much, David!

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Jun 2, 2022Liked by Kier Adrian Gray

What you're writing is important. It feels like the tide is turning on this phenomenon.

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I am hopeful that it is!

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Jun 2, 2022Liked by Kier Adrian Gray

Thanks for writing this piece. It’s something I wouldn’t have had the courage to write. It is horribly disillusioning and isolating to experience this happening and to see the people around you who once were compassionate and intelligent friends all agree that you must be a horrible person for the slightest questioning of orthodoxy will quickly silence the bravest and most earnest souls. Respect, Kier.

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Your comment captures the social dynamic so well. This worldview can't hold up to scrutiny, so it tries desperately and viciously to avoid it altogether, and the effects on people's relationships can be devastating.

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May 29, 2022Liked by Kier Adrian Gray

This is fascinating.

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May 28, 2022Liked by Kier Adrian Gray

Thanks so much for writing this Kier, it really resonated for me.

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It means a lot to hear that, Rae! Thank you.

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May 28, 2022Liked by Kier Adrian Gray

Big Love, Kier. I remember living those days, too, and am so muchly thankful there are meaningful ways to build up what is good in each other, and gentle ways of guiding us back to our best selves.

You're doing good work, and it is an honor to be your friend

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Well said, my friend! The feelings are very much mutual <3

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Keep going!

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Thank you—I will!

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